Fluctuation

I've been having some writer's block since my last post.
I start this new blog, try and hype it up so it'll be super popular, and then I just never post on the damn thing.
I start writing a post and then 3 sentences in, I give up and never touch it again.
Alas.
Today has been an interesting day. Fluctuation is the topic for discussion, as you can see. That is how my day has been in one simple word. Coincidentally, that's how my life has been also. I try to stay positive, and I'm good at staying positive. Why wouldn't I be? I've got loads of friends. My life is on track. My goals are set. I'm just living day by day trying to attain said goals.

But within that box is a collection of individual boxes.

My day by day has been its own challenge. Who knows what I'm really talking about here? I would safely assume everyone.
I could begin ranting about how shitty my day has been, ranging from the fact that I got terrible grades on 2 quizzes in two classes in the course of several hours. I could complain about a certain subject that is slowly driving me insane, but I don't really want to get into it too deeply in such an open forum such as this. Perhaps in a later post.
I think I'm ranting again....
The problem is everyone has their own group of problems. I tell myself not to complain because I know my circumstances are good and i really have nothing worthy to complain about. I begin thinking about specific people who do have something to complain about. And then I think about life as those people, and how they also don't have room to complain because of an entire new group of people that has circumstances even worse than them. It is a never ending cycle until you come to realize that...that we all complain because it's natural. We all complain because we're human. We all complain because we are vocal creatures. We should complain. We should bitch and moan about things. Certainly not everything, but if a circumstance has caused you harm or trouble or difficulty in your life, you have every right to complain about it. I can't say who you should complain to, because I know some people will most likely hit you in the head and tell you to "quit your bitchin'."

My vision is shaking...Is that bad? Oh well... Doesn't matter...
I really hope this makes sense to people, because I have a feeling that I'm in the wrong state of mind to make sense.

Fluctuation.

I worry about the fact that I didn't get a good grade on something.
A woman worries she won't have enough money for rent this month.
A man worries he can't feed his child.
A woman worries she can't go outside because there are bombs going off in her city on a daily basis.
Did I mention I didn't do well on some schoolwork?

Perspective.
Perhaps if we all had a little more perspective on things, we could understand better.
What do I know? I've barely got any perspective on things and I'm the most open-minded person I know.
That's called Irony...I think...

I think once I shine a light on some specific problems, it may help with others that continue to rattle about in the ole' noggin. Maybe if I shine a light on the monster, I wouldn't feel like such a baby. Maybe if I knew what I was covering up from the world, I could actually reveal it. Maybe I'm just not making any damn sense no matter what I type in this stupid box.

I'm done with this.

-Æ